Thursday 24 September 2009

Ritual Streaming of the Gnostic Head God

The switching bubble reverberated at 10 decibels, alternating between pure brilliant light and dysfunctional dystrophic redundancies. A small man, covered in darkened materials, leant forward and inserted the diskette as tendrils of smoke and plasma seeped through blue tinged dragon swirls and danced through the coolant fluid.

“Birthing of the hexadecimal quadrant via haemoglobin electrolytes and toilet plungers will commence in 5 minutes, the might sartorial ebb will proceed” another voice entered through the womb section and delivered another epitaph. “Frothing visions pulsate through the minds edging as crystalline solutions smelt into the coalescence of the one true forming ritual, we are about to hear the field of visions, we are about to rebirth the population, we are the golden tide of the green dawn. Please, let us as one, rejoice through the ultimate star voile. The epoch of uncertainty and the death of the midget frog will at once collide into infinite suns.”

Two planets circle the congregation, emitting diodes of pink Holstein and quim verde through a squeeze prism. Purple notes spread throughout the sermon valve. Washing over the keys with plastic froth and dentine apples. Quickly, they run through the whore church and gather their keep sakes, wishing that their enslavement to commodity circles would wash away through the arterial sewage pipe of leather backed dogs.

The fish fibre stare of the dreadnought head would emit a far greater epoch into which we slither through the whole turgid mess. Bodies of aqua foam and pink, mock the daily routine of the slave devil. We are the children of filth, the forbearers of battlefield salvage machine warriors. The crying hunters of the severed goose are watching, viewing the dance of the osprey tarts in eloquent, stenching uniforms of black and gold. The Runic symbols displayed with father pride and unadulterated genocide.

“Whither, almighty fathers of the skin. Dance O’ Mothers of the harlot queen. Enclose within the fighting clasp of humbug soldiers and death flies. The sugar coated turd will be consumed and the secret acts of the cosmic art will spew forth, ejaculating petals of Turkish delight and caramel.” The donkey announced, as he trotted across Blackpool beach.

The smell of blood and pig flesh horse maggots, mix into the atmospheric smells of the releasing cassette. The dark clothed man, vomiting words at terrifying speed - eating, consuming. The knee jerk principles of empire and the distance lineage of the troll macabre will sweep away the event of apocalypse fruit.

The pubis jester will conquer the runt of life. The dieing scream of the tracer bullet and the soft, soft sound of the rose bug.

And when the makeshift blue of cornellian pain shatters the bough. We will sing to the pear drop king and usher in the joker via a test tube and a bran flake rug.

Saturday 12 September 2009

Dead Souls

"In a thousand years time, the remnants of the human race will flutter their gills, flap their flippers and declare this a pivotal moment in the decline and fall of global civilisation. I'm John Peel, he's Kid Jensen and this is Joy Division."
Mark looked up from his second bowl of Sugar Puffs as the camera rose above the crowd and the guitars crashed in. The band on stage looked like they really weren't happy to be there and the singer danced like a spaz, but the man with the guitar down at his knees looked cool. Mark watched them closely until the song ended, his spoon held forgotten in his hand, dripping milk onto his Superman pyjamas.
The rest of the program was pretty dull, but Mark knew that everyone would be talking about it in the playground in the morning so he did his best to memorise the order of the top ten. His mum hadn't gone out the week before and he'd spent the night in his room, and even though he'd listened to the new Top 40 on the previous Sunday, he'd felt left out of all the conversations. In the end he'd wound up talking to some of the younger kids and pretending he'd watched it.
Bucks Fizz were still number one and he waited to see if the girls ripped their skirts off again but it wasn't as exciting now that he knew it was coming, and you couldn't see anything anyway. He thought about playing with himself but Mel was asleep on the sofa and he didn't want to wake her in case she started crying again.
To be honest, he still wasn't sure if he was doing it right anyway. The older lads talked about it a lot but he couldn't just come right out and ask how to do it so he had to act like he knew what they meant, laugh along at their jokes and hope to pick up enough clues to work it out. Thinking about it was giving him a bonkon and Mel was all snuggled up with her teddy bear blanket, but he didn't want to risk it.
Instead, he got up, turned the telly off and switched on the radio. The newsreader was talking about the Russians again and he quickly silenced the volume. The news used to bore him, ten minutes of talking and no music, but now it terrified him. His mum made him show off to her friends by reading the newspaper out loud, and he liked it when their kids tried it and got all tangled up on the words, even though most of them were older than him. It made him feel good when his mum was proud of him, but even though he could read the words some of the stories made no sense. He'd asked his mum what they meant, why they would only get a four minute warning if the war started, and his mum had explained that if they had a war then there wouldn't be anywhere safe to run to so there was no point having any more time. He could still see the picture she'd drawn in the back of his maths book, a circle of shapeless blobs that he knew were the wrong shape for the countries they were meant to be and a mass of arrows criss-crossing from one country to the next. The 4 minute warning wasn't enough time to run away, she explained, but it was more than enough time for each country to launch their own missiles, so that if they had to die then they'd kill everyone else too. His mum said it was called M.A.D. and Mark agreed.
Ever since then, he'd had nightmares about nuclear war. He didn't actually know what the warning signal would sound like, so he lay awake at night, listening for it and panicking at every unexpected noise. He'd even been sent home from school because of his terror when the chemical factory down the road tested a new safety warning siren. While the rest of the class had carried on reciting their eight times table, Mark had started screaming and ran straight for the door. They brought him down in the playground and dragged him back inside, kicking and sobbing uncontrollably. It was only when he felt that a long enough time had passed that he finally calmed down a little and told them what was wrong. The teachers couldn't find his mum, thankfully, so they called his nan in and he went to her house for the night. Things always felt better when he was with his nan, but he knew that he would already be in enough trouble when his mum came home, so he didn't tell her or anyone that it was more than just the siren which had frightened him. Explaining M.A.D., his mum had told him that the aftermath of a nuclear war would be so bad that she wouldn't even wait for the bombs to fall. As soon as they gave the warning, she would kill Mel, Mark and herself so that none of them would have to suffer. When the siren sounded at school, he knew that if he didn't get home straight away then he would be left to die all alone.
But even that wasn't the worst outcome he could imagine. Far worse was the possibility that they would start the war while his mum was out at the bingo or the club and he was looking after Mel. Then it would be his job to look after her, the way he had to wash her hand and face and get her into her cot. He would have to make sure that she didn't suffer, but he really wasn't sure that he could do it; she cried enough when she bumped her head on the table. Like his mum said though, he was the man of the house now so he would have to start acting like it. He would have to find a way. He looked over at the still shape lying quietly on the sofa and made a silent promise to take care of her, whatever happened.
Shaking himself from his daydream, he pulled open the drawer in the living room cabinet and rummaged through the box of cassette tapes it held, a collection he had built up week by week, sitting poised with his fingers ready to press play and record when the DJ announced a song that he liked. More often than not he was too slow or they talked over the start, but the tapes still held enough of each song to be worth keeping. He slipped one of his current favourites into the Hi-Fi and pressed it into place with a satisfying ka-chik. He pressed play, ready for the grinding of gears which said that the ancient Grundig stereo had chewed another tape. The machine just hissed softly as the tape spooled across the heads, so he switched to playback mode and slowly increased the volume to just below the point where it was likely to wake Mel. She didn't even stir as The Jam began to play "Going Underground" and he boogied back over to the sofa, sat down on the floor with his back to his sister and reached for his school bag.
Pulling out a couple of exercise books, he briefly considered starting on his homework, then thought better of it, tossed them aside and pulled out his latest reading book. It was a risky decision though. If his mum came home alone she would go through his school books again, skimming through the pages and looking for the tell tale red ink and demanding an explanation for every "See me." Getting the homework done could save him from another night of screaming and slapping, or even worse, the cold fury with which she told him that he was wasting his potential and just just like his father. But she'd gone out with her hair done up and her new leather skirt on so it looked like she was going straight to the club after the bingo. That gave him an extra couple of hours, and The Borribles was far more exciting than fractions and the industrial revolution.
Later, as the C-90 ran out cutting Visage off mid song, Mark was no closer to doing his homework, and not that much closer to the end of The Borribles either. Instead he lay curled up on the floor between the sofa and the coffee table, the book still held loosely in his unconscious grip. He twitched slightly, almost imperceptibly, as his dreams shook once more to the sound of sirens.
This time he dreamt that he was alone in the park. It was night time and the street lamps glittered in the distance, promising warmth and the safety of companions. But between him and them lay the vast black expanse of empty, muddy playing fields, the skeletal remains of the shattered bandstand and the rusty, spiked steel fence which ringed the entire park. In broad daylight it would take him ten minutes to get from one end of the park to the other; there was clearly no way that he could make it home in less than four minutes in the pitch darkness. But as the banshee wail of the siren echoed around the bare trees, he began to run.
His heart pounding in his chest, muscles burning and tearing, stumbling on broken brickwork and sliding in the mud, he ran through the darkness. The sirens grew louder and more insistent, drowning out his pained breaths and anguished sobs.
Then it was silent.
The bomb hung in the air above him, frozen in the instant of explosion like a great silver star. It lit the world like a million flashbulbs and Mark saw a thousand frightened children caught in the glare, running through the park in every direction. As one being, they turned their tear-streaked faces to the new born sun and bathed in its cold radiance.
Instantly, every child became a cloud of drifting ash. In the midst of this swirling maelstrom, Mark knew that he was alone. Standing directly beneath the epicentre of the spreading blast wave, he understood that every speck of ash was another dead child, a floating ghost. Mel, his nan, his mum and every man she ever brought home. All gone. All dead. He had been left behind.
Now that it had happened, it no longer scared him. The light from the star reached every horizon, burning trees and cars and schools to soft swirling ash. The air around him was thick with ghosts and he felt them pressing against him, trying to share a little of his life. The dust cloud rippled as another shade drew near. The clear light and the thick clouds left Mark as blind as the complete darkness of a moment before, but there was a warmth and a sense of recognition to this latest ghost. He raised his arms toward sit and felt it enveloping him, lifting him from his feet and cradling him in its phantom arms.
"Nan?"
The ghost pressed him tighter, every fragment of its being suffused with love. Mark was alone in all the world and he would never be alone again. The world had ended and everything was perfect.
He woke to the sound of screaming, raising his head from the carpet just in time to see his mother's foot swinging towards him. He had no time to avoid it and the kick connected with his head. Everything went white and he raised his hands to cover his face, wet with blood and the first startled tears. Between his shaking fingers he saw his mum standing over him, clutching Mel to her chest. Her hair was a tangled mess and her makeup was smeared and streaked by recent tears but her eyes were dry and blazed with fury. Mel hung limp in her arms, the angry red V where her head had hit the table looking huge and angry against her too-pale skin. The teddy bear blanket had slipped from her tiny fingers and lay on the floor beside him. He lowered his guard to lift it towards her, thinking it would make everything better. His mum snatched it away, planted her foot against his chest and slammed him back against the sofa. As he fought for breath she knelt across his legs, pinning him down without even noticing. She screamed at him, her face inches from his, her breath hot with stale beer, cigarettes and panic.
"What did you do Mark? What did you do to your fucking sister?"

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